I feel like I’ve made the biggest mistake in my life…
Guess splitting with my ex twice in three months had messed me up more than I originally thought. We decided to be friends after the second and final split in August. I thought I was making progress with getting over it and at the time, I felt like I could deal with staying friends. She made a point of wanting some space so I gave it to her and did not contact her unless she texted or called me. I did this for the past two months. Since she has BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder), she took it as me ignoring her, abandoning her. I knew she hates when people blow her off for no reason…this is part of the reason I’m hurting so much. The other reason…I had this strange feeling that I should’ve called her the middle of last week and I suspect it was my intuition talking to me. However, I brushed it off and decided not to. Now, she hates me cause she truly believes I was ignoring her for the past five months on purpose just to hurt her. I seriously don’t know how I’m gonna deal with this cause even though I have been a wreck since we split, hurting her was still the last thing I wanted to do…ever. Now I’ve lost her for the third and final time. She will always hold a special place in my heart, regardless of her telling me she despises me.
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